i found this picture today.
i am wondering where the smiling skinny person went
am i getting better at this life or worse?
knowing who took the picture fills me with sadness
i am realizing the last three years fill me equal parts happiness/melancholy/confusion
am i just another douchebag?
was i ever the person in that photo?
i feel like a hollow person
filled with academic bullshit, what was once seen as important.
it means nothing.
and i am wondering,
am i getting better at this life or worse?
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Alamir
"The grass is always greener on the other side" : As in, you don't know if you would be feeling intellectually void had you never joined academia.
or the second truism "ignorance is bliss" : Perhaps you were happier when you weren't aware of what you do now. But would you give it up?